I've felt sick all day today.. queasy and headaches.. my eyes hurt. My brother called and told me that mom and dad are mad at me for something, that I'm in trouble and I better call home.. but he always says that when he leaves messages so I am not calling. It just makes me nervous. And I don't want to talk to them anyway..

I thought about writing something to Josh today but changed my mind. What if after that I felt clearance to go? I watched a play where a girl got strangled.. that doesn't seem like it hurts too much, that could work. Nobody would be willing to help me do that though. Olivia would get As this semester if I went ahead and did it, I think.