i cant even think of what to write except that i actually looked up methods of suicide today and I'm ashamed to say that.. the only thing is I'm way too scared to even try any of that stuff beca use the pictures look reallys cary.. its just that i feel headaches a lot and like crying bt i don't have any tears in my tearducts or whatever so that's it.. i wish i kept a private blog that people couldnt read buti just felt like posting something to keep my hadns busy ofr a while.